Liquid Only - Day 1

So today marks two weeks until my surgery which is great, but it also means I start the all liquid diet, which is not so great.  Here's how the day went...

Breakfast- mix up a shake, no problem, been doing this for two weeks already, got breakfast down pat.

Get to the office and about noon Anne-Marie says she is ready for lunch.  She brought hers and of course I had my shake but neither of us wanted to go in the break room and it was raining outside.  So we sat at my desk and chit chatted.  She had a deviled ham sandwich, it smelled amazing.  I was tempted, guess that's the devil in the ham.  She also had a Pringles - ugh a trigger food for me - but I keep it under control.  Then for dessert not only did she have nutter butters, she also had Reese's pieces.  At this point, I really think she is trying to kill me.  Not her fault really, the boyfriend packed her lunch.  I drink my shake, all happy like that, and then chase it with my sugar free crystal light peach tea.  Funny, neither of those taste like a deviled ham sandwich and Pringles.

By 2:30 my head is pounding and my blood sugar is dropping.  I'm not gonna make it.  This sucks.  I make a call and learn I can have a handful of crackers.  Thank goodness Monica has some wheat thins.  I get those, 16 crackers = 140 calories.  I eat them slowly, pretending they are Fillet Mignon, but they still tasted like wheat thins.  Oh well, soon the headache subsides.

I work until 6:30 and as I am leaving I spy the Taco Bell in our parking lot.  Ugh, why am I always thinking about food...oh yeah cause I can't have any!  I think, I could grab a couple of soft tacos, eat them in the car and tell no one.  But then I remember how hard it was to quit smoking and that I had to do it one day at a time.  So I manage to steer my car past Taco Bell without stopping.  I pop a piece of gum in my mouth thinking maybe I just want to chew.  That does the trick for a bit.

I'm home now and just mixed up my evening shake.  It's chocolate flavored and I'm hoping that when I am done with these two weeks, I'll never want chocolate again.

Maybe tomorrow will be easier.