I've been talking with my psychologist (the good doctor) about issues that trigger my anger. Turns out that anger is really the secondary emotion and what I am really feeling is more like disappointment, isolation, inequalities, vulnerability, etc. It was really eye opening. There are also varying degrees of anger ranging from annoyance, irritation, mad, aggitated, irate to rage.
Of course my favorite part of the conversation is when he asked how I dealt with it. I said I usually handle it one of two ways. I either snap and yell, especially if with my children...or I become very sarcastic. Sometimes the sarcasm is in response to the stupidity I deal with at work and sometimes it's just to poke fun. I told him I really felt like sarcasm was my spiritual gift, but that it was just left out of the Bible passage. He thought that was funny, I thought it was honest.
So I thought it would be good to keep an anger journal along with my food journal. So here's what's happened this week:
Monday - Annoyed that my supposed backup didn't invite me to an important meeting at work.
Tuesday - Irritated that Andrew had not unloaded the dishwasher or done his share of kitchen duties for the week.
Wedensday - Annoyed that I have misplaced my ATM card.
Thursday - Mad that a project manager in my office scheduled me for testing on Monday when the equipment won't be delivered until Tuesday? I mean really...does he think I am just going to test the air flow of the room? Who can't read a calendar? Worse yet, I had to point out to him that his scheduling made no sense.
Ah, see how my level of anger turned into sarcasm when it got higher up the scale? Interesting isn't it?
As for my eating journal...well that's another post.
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